The Jack--------For Athrun

Put the cards by type, from bigger one to small one. The order is King, Queen, Jack, and then all those numerical cards. Jack is the one in the middle; it exists, but has little power to influence the direction of the game. It just exists.

You were a prince. Your father was in charge of a country. In general mind, such person can be considered as a prince though he has no such title before his name. You had or may even have the quality of a prince: handsome, polite, and gentle. You was even has a fiancée who could also be considered as a princess. It seemed perfect.
But, it is not a play where prince and princess have their quiet life, though it is much more ridiculous than those fairy tales.
You lost you mother at the beginning. You lose your family, or more than family but also teacher and teammates and even friend at the end.
Someone said that you betrayed your country; someone argues that you just followed what is called justice. But, for me, you are just the chessman, a sad chessman, played by the destiny.
Your machines are always called Justice. What a satire it is! You may be the only one who can not find the justice in the heart. Or maybe there is no such thing that can be called justice in this reality world?
They said you are suitable for the red colour. I feel sad about this fact. Why you are so willing to escape from the blood world but you are still in the centre of it? Why does the destiny treat you so cruel?
Someone makes a joke: every person who had talk with on the deck would surely die. And actually they died, except the guy who will never die. Each time such thing happens you would be much sadder, and more confused about way you choose.
Once a time I disliked you. It was the time that you were moved by the prolocutor. I cannot stand that you are not yourself. Why not make decision yourself? Why not follow the way that you have chosen? Maybe even at the first time when you were moved by your lovely fiancée I begin to feel unpleased.
You think too much, confused by yourself. The never dead guy makes a decision faster than you and he follows it more constantly, although his decision may be innocent. But you always consider others. No one can fit everybody’s desire! Be willful if you really want to do something.
Or may be, at last you are just a prince, playing a role of knight. You are not the saviour. You are not the King who can control the whole thing. You are just the Jack, fighting for the princess, even the princess now is not yours. Be a real knight, and don’t consider other things, then you can relax.
They want you to be a Jack, a knight, a fighter.
But will that still be you?

I will be with you in such a hard and cruel world, as far as you are still yourself, my prince, my beloved.